dearest computer...

First of all, it's me...not you.

I know that I turned you on early this morning...and then just left without so much as a log-in.

Then, after I came home from my busy morning...I walked right by you without a hello or an I've missed you...I feel bad for the glance that I gave you in frustration.

You see...I have so much to do around the house today...so much organizing and plans to bake cookies for the kids...i just couldn't bring myself to sit down with you today.

I'm sorry.

The thing is...when I sit down in front of you and put my hands on you...I can't keep them off...I know...I know...you're like an old boyfriend that I keep going back to...the kind of boyfriend that would take up all of my time and then leave me to catch up on all of my to do's alone. The kind of boyfriend that slowly pulls me from all of my friends and keeps me from family.

Mr C always makes hints to me about being jealous of the time that we spend together...it is quite the job for me to make him feel secure in his manhood...you are not so easy to compete with...you with your hard drive and flat screen just sitting across from us every night.

However...today I cannot and will not be seduced by you.

Not today.

I will not be pulled into lingering on line...hopping from blog to blog...scrolling down my favorites list.

Not today.

For my list of to do's runs long...and time will not let us be together until this eve.

Like I said before...It's me...not you.